I just can't stop....

1) Crying.
            Can't stop crying. I want to be with him, but I don't want him to be unhappy.

2) Having negative thoughts
             Really, I can't. My mind just automatically has negative thoughts. It's hard to control. It's not fair )':
Why can't my mind have happy thoughts? WHY?

3) Loving him.
              No matter how much he hurt me, I can't stop loving him. I've tried to make myself hate him but it just doesn't work. At fucking all.

I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY. I want to be Bitter Happiness or something.

I'll only love him )':

Tryna do the right thing,
Sweetened Misery.