Miserable

I'm feeling fcking miserable right now. I wish i can just...hurt myself. But, yeah, i rmbr in december i met someone and i promised i won't cut. I never cut for seven months now.

I kinda wish we hung out more though. I miss that person. Doesn't know it but the person cheered me up at random times when I'm feeling down like this.

But now, it's just awkward. Fucking. Awkward. I missed that moment, missed the chances we could've met up and talked about random shit. Hah....

I'm such a fuck up for a human being.

Todayayayayay

Okay wtv. It was a bleargh morning coz i woke up late for school. Bleargh. Spent 30 min standing and i was like weeeeeeeeee coz i nvr sahur in the morning.

Now my stomach's like really really empty. Like, emptier than a blonde's head. Okay that was bitchy. But wtv. My blog my say my words allll miiiiine bitches _|_

Okay, maintain sia hahahah omg I'm hungryyyyyyyyy. So I'm in the bus otw tk bedok with my Spiderman ♥ weeeeeee, i really wanna sleep. My eyebags are hideous. Really really just hanging like they own my eyes or some shit. Bahahahaha. Okay, I'll take a nap now. Toodlez.

Sad as always,
Sweetened Misery.

Complications

Fucking wondering...why do some people want me to get back with MNS? Can't they see that I'm happy with my Spiderman? Yeah, me and
MNS are still hanging out and taking a billion pics together each time, but that doesn't mean that we're back together.

Spiderman and me have been going in for about a month now. We might not spend as much time as we want with each other now that he's in NS, but still, I really really like him, a lot. And I'm hoping, that this really really like feel  will turn into love. I don't want my feelings to fade. He makes me happy. He makes me feel wanted and needed.

I don't wanna be sad and miserable anymore.

Wondering, (fake) smiling and trying to love,
Sweetened Misery.

Fuck exs lah

I fcking wonder why MNS can't leave me alone. Seriously, I'm FUCKING tired of his bullfuckingshit. I'm attached already, yet he still wants to bothet me. Nabei, i wanna live mg own life, my way lah, can't you just leave me alone?!

Sadness be gone lah fuck

I'm sitting right next to him bow but there's this heavy feelin of sadness in my heart. Why? I just don't get it. Is this pms or some shit? Idfk. I really feel like cryin but I won't. I'm done crying already. Cry cry cry. Fuck lah. I'm not 10 anymore. I'm fucking turning 19 soon. Don't fucking get it. Fuck this man.